H is for "hopeful"

Current possible labour symptoms: Cramps, back pain

Woke up this morning feel very disheartened.

After spending yesterday afternoon and evening walking until my legs fell off, I was so HOPEFUL that labour would start last night.

And because I had those really painful contractions/back pain yesterday morning, and I was so HOPEFUL they would develop into something.

And because today is the eight-days-early mark, and I was so HOPEFUL that I would also have my baby eight days early, like my fellow-H1N1-injectee friend.

And because Dr. L is only working in the delivery unit today and tomorrow, and I was so HOPEFUL she would be the one to deliver this baby.

I know that it’s stupid to have my hopes up when I’m not even due for another eight (EIGHT!) days, but I can’t help it. I am just one of those people who get sky-high hopes and then feels very, very sad when something does not pan out.

• Darling Husband has been working doubles for the past few days, so I literally have not seen him
• I’ve been stuck here without the car, starved for contact with the outside world
• Everyone has jobs (a.k.a. No time to spend with the pregnant shut-in)
• I’ve been watching episode after episode of Secret Life of the American Teenager and Make it or Break It — yes, I’m 12
• I have read all of my 30-odd library books
• I am not sleeping well, so the days/nights seem much longer
• I’m tired of cleaning up my craft messes, so I have stopped crafting

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